Chapter 14: Broken
Tony turned on the stereo, he always did this when he was feeling down. The cd was still the one he played when Kate was here, Broken by Sether ft Amy lee
came on and he leaned back in his settee and closed his eyes he remembered all the times he shared with Kate, good and bad but still they were with Kate and
he liked that.
I wanted you to know
That I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I remember when she laughed so hard knowing that i had tounged that guy, i hated it but she rubbed it in my face, i couldn't believe what i had done but
hearing her laugh was the best sound ever, she scrunches her nose up when she laughs and he face lights up like sunshine.
I keep your photograph
And I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
She had given it to me when she left to go into hiding from Ari, she had told me that she would be back to collect it as she didn't want a picture of
her to get out everywhere if she was going to still be able to get it off him. He kept it in his wallet so she could be everywhere with him, he never
told her that of course but he couldn't stop thinking about her and how she made him feel, he was a schoolboy when he was with her but he never knew
how to let her know how he felt as it may wreck the friendship they had if she didn't feel the same about him.
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
She should be here i can't do this on my own, without her i'm not whole she keeps me in line and tells me when i am doin gsomething wrong and when i have
said something that has upset someone and she definately lets me know when he is being unfair to the opposite sex.
You've gone away
You don't feel me here....anymore
Where the hell is she! we need to find her she could eb dead or dying or in serious pain and here u am sitting on my a** doing nothing! but it is like 4am
and i am so tired i wouldn't be much help anyway, i have already thought that i have lost Kate and endangered myself and the rest of the team by storming
in to that building and finding that body there, i am so glad that it wasn't Kate i don't know what i would have done if it was her?
The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
She took good care of me after i came back to work after the Y pestis as she felt it was her fault for letting me open the letter in the first place
I remember when she stayed with me when i had Y Pestis even though she knew she could get infected, she looked genuinely scared when i was getting worse
and if it wasn't for Gibbs coming in and telling me that i wasn't dieing i would have told her then how i had felt about her.
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
I was so glad when Gibbs had said that Ari had been killed, it meant that Kate could come home and we could be together, the time apart had made my
feelings for her stronger than ever, and i promised myself that i would tell her how i felt and hopefully she would do the same and we could live
happily ever after and that she will never have to feel afraid again.
cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
She took good care of me after i came back to work after the Y pestis as she felt it was her fault for letting me open the letter in the first place that
she offered to stay at my appartment while i fully recovered but i had to turn her down as i knew that the feelings i had for her were too strong for her
not to notice being around me everyday, looking after me, feeding me and sitting with me attending to my needs.
cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
I need her back, to know that she is safe and that we will be able to live our lives together as one when she returns, and for me to tell how much i love
her and that i will keep her safe, that i have wanted her to be the mother of my children for so long now it is unreal. She is everything i have ever
wanted in a woman, dating wasn't the safe after i had found out about the possibility that she felt the same for me as i did her.
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone ...away
Tony slowly sinked further and further in his settee as he listened to the words intensly and thinking about the day when he and Kate could be together
again.
You're gone away
You don't feel me here....anymore
He slowly drifted off into a restless sleep.
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